I’m going crazy

I’m going crazy

Every single detail in this video, in this life is just heartbreaking.

Pray for Gaza.

Pray for the children, the mothers, and the elderly. Entire families are staying in the open, forced to sleep under the sky and on the bare ground.

These are the darkest, most unbearable days since the beginning of the genocide.

And instead of easing, the crimes only intensify, more savage, more merciless, with every single day.

I don't understand it. Some of you and I'm talking about those who've only recently followed me, never speak on your profiles about what's happening here. Why? Isn't it significant enough? Don't we deserve to be seen and heard in your communities? Or are we so worthless in your eyes that our suffering isn't worth sharing with your people? Are we a curse? Or is our misery so Overwhelming that youd rather look away and pretend it doesn't exist?

If it were you, you’d lose your mind. If it were you, you'd want the whole world to scream your name, to fight for you, to make sure you never lived a single moment of this hell, let alone two fucking years of it. If it were you, youd hate everything, and everyone.

So stop for one goddamn moment obsessing over your own blessings and privileges, and think about the people of this land.

And to all people, to the entire world: how do you feel as you watch these images? How can anyone live in comfort, celebrate their children, and dream of their futures, while watching children here grow up in the darkest realities, waiting for their turn under the Zionist machine of terror? What does it say about your humanity if you allow this to continue without giving everything you can to stop it and save as many children as possible? Your children are children; and Gazan children are children too. You cannot claim to care for children if you care only for some.

Now call me crazy because l don't sleep at night. Call me crazy because I feel so shattered I need to hug my son tight and in the meanwhile I feel guilty about being able to do that. Call me crazy because I feel we're not doing enough.

Treat me like l'm mentally insane: I find YOU mentally insane, if you can sleep at night, Iive your normal lives, take pictures of your fancy meals and celebration, if you can just look away. Genocide is an attack to our nervous system: if yours is spared, something is definitely wrong with it

Mum is sick, fighting a painful tonsillitis. Tonight she had a headache, and fever, and we didn't even have a single paracetamol pill to take it. She's asleep now, but somehow, I feel her headache occupying and aching in my own head.

We haven't lived anything but pain. We were once peaceful, good people; and now we are dead, out of pain.

We deserve paracetamol. We didn't deserve this painful ending!

I can't even remember the last time I had a normal day, no conflicts, no chaos, just peace. Netanyahu wants to erase me, and my menory. AmI to be killed in this, to remain only a memory, a footnote in a history that will be spoken of until the end of time?

DoI deserve a life? Will I get to live? Fucking hell, damn you world!