Goodnight and goodbye world!

This picture reminds me of my last normal days, when l and my fellow doctors went on a sea trip. Among my friends from that day, a doctor and his family were killed, another doctor was shot in the abdomen and leg, another doctor whose children were killed, another doctor whose family was killed, another whose mother died because of lack of medications, and others I don't know if they are still alive, and most of them lost family members, their homes, and basically everything! and everyone I went with that day, have been dehumanised, displaced many times under fire, starved and suffered the unbearable, and experienced the unimaginable, and they are all still facing the risk of being wiped out, they and their families, from the face of the earth, after surviving all this time!

I am not so well, and what worries my heart the most and makes me feel exhausted all the time, is not just the psychological torture, and that death and/or physical torture, by those psychopathic terrorists in the worst ways possible is very close to me and my family, and to everything í care about, but also that a decent life is very far away and not available, and we've to stay in this hell for unknown period of time, waiting for the unknown, and facing the horrible existence! And this massive burden is because I knew the normal, and I was full of life, and I know I want that back! I have spent my whole life worried, and I do not know how this sensitive heart can bear all this anxiety and bad feelings, and how this mind can absorb all these atrocities! Anyways, goodnight, and goodbye world!