I can’t even save lives!

I wanted to become a doctor, because when I was young, I wished to have the ability to help others, and save their lives; but now l'm a doctor, living in and witnessing genocide, and I can't even save lives!

It was a really busy and bad 24 hours shift, and for the first 16 hours on my feet, running in all directions, asking a million questions, replying to a million questions, trying to get to everyone the help they needed, and when it finally went quiet, they surprised a safe family, near to the hospital, by two missiles at their apartment, one exploded and the other didn't, and one of the family told me they were lucky the other one didn't explode; they were lucky!! A few minutes before the casualties arrived, I was trying to breathe and collect some energy to do the work!

I dealt with this girl and her brother, both arrived unconscious, and both have brain injuries, and we couldn't even do a CT scan for them, so we had to transfer them to another hospital. They came back with their scans showing bleeding into the brain, and signs of brain death. And I had to watch the die slowly!

And even this minimal medical care, is not available in the north.

Is that how kids are being treated in your country? Because that's how children for more than a million years, have been treated in my country, where my family, friends, and everyone l care about are, suspected to the same terrors.

So I'm just guessing that it's not our turn to be killed yet, and we have to wait longer for our turn, with a bit more of oppression, starvation, psychological torture, and you know what else too! because that's what the world has decided we deserve.

And at the same time, we have to try to save lives with the bare minimum of energies and capabilities we have, for them to be killed later. And feeling positive about it, when the world says that we are heroes!