i’m so fucking sad, and tired of this

I have a loving, blessed family. I have warmth. But tonight;

I am hungry. Kahaya and Coco, my cat and kitten, are starving.

And it hurts.

America isn't helping. It is hurting us. It is starving us..

I am utterly heartbroken. My life was never mine to choose.

What a painful existence. Never normal. Never at peace.

Just tears; over everything.

Endless heartbreak. I'm dying; slowly, painfully. Falling apart. Broken for good. Tears and blood.

Healing never comes. Never safe. Just a person in pieces.

Fragments of a past. A past that means nothing.

We are here. We are not here. Where are we? What are we?